today's chat

I thought I had one of these already, but guess not...
so starting again.
I guess I can use this as a second or third place to track my goal of losing weight, so here goes...
I am 41, and have been overweight basically since my mid teens. Laziness and bad eating habits will do that to a person.
I am not one for exercise (perhaps I should change that now...)
I like sweets (that's still a constant)
I live pretty much a sedentary life (I have good days and bad...)
I have tried pretty much my whole adult life to lose weight, some years I tried, some years I gave up, I knew what it takes to lose weight, eat less, workout more... everyone knows this, but some times I would work really hard and eat less and I would lose maybe if lucky 1 or 2 pounds in 6 weeks, so I gave up, and gained more then I would try again, this time joining a gym and working out more and one year I did succeed, managed to lose 15 lbs in one year, next year came I put it back on and added 10 lbs to it. From then on I stopped, life got in the way... I didn't care, I had family issues that didn't make time for working out, then I got a major hernia that hurt me deeply it hurt to move, it hurt to live most days.. so I honestly gave up, I did managed to stop gaining weight, my body wouldn't let me get above 250 I stayed at this weight with little to no change in 3 years. I was not happy at this weight, but stayed with it, I didn't buy new clothes, just wore the same ratty pants and shirts, stains and all, I didn't care how I looked.
Things changed last Febuary, I finally had my surgery to fix my painful hernia, and that helped the weight come off, I could move with no pain, what a concept!!! Life is beautiful! I started walking. Walking has always been my exercise of choice in all the years I tried to lose, I always had walking as my main mode of exercise. So I started walking and I enjoyed it, I found my diet easy to follow as it was something I had started on my own, there were certain things I was willing to give up, added sugar and added fats, so I stopped using sugar and started eating splenda, I gave up margarine, in favor of nothing, I made sandwiches without it, only using mayo if it was meat based or just jam and pea-butter if that was what I fancied. I then decided I could give up french fries, so I started getting side salads with my fast food orders. I was not and probably never will give up my big macs. I also will not give up chocolate, I very rarely have full sized, full fat/sugar filled chocolate bars, I love the cadbury thins chocolate bar, gets my fill, but doesn't blow my diet. I found http://www.sparkpeople.com and that has helped my to stay motivated and to keep trudging along...
I have seen people exercising out in the wild (outside the house) for years and wondered what keeps them doing this, how come then don't give up... when I always seem too..
I have seen people exercise in the dead of winter and wonder what kind of nut are you???
well let me tell you I am now that nut and I know how come you push yourself to exercise, the endorphin's make you get up off your butt, when you have the energy, you have to burn it, otherwise you go crazy, I never thought I would ever (EVER!!!) exercise outside in winter, what kind of nut does this??? Well I do, I bought the clothes and the gear and I dress and go, me, my music and my legs. It is such a rush... never thought I would say that.
I can see 2008 being a wonderful year... I can see myself making goal, 50 lbs gone in 2007.
here's hoping 60 gone in 2008